in my last journal i mentioned about being happy to finally have a boyfriend. well its been a week since i heard from him, despite sending emails and leaving voicemails. it figures though. every guy i've ever been interested in either hurts me in a short amount of time or is straight. maybe i should stop being so up front. maybe i should start caring about what i look like. maybe i should just start saying i'm gay, because apparently being bi just isn't enough. so if a gay guy happens to read this, i like guys just as much as you do, so dont automatically downgrade me just cuz i like girls too. fuck it, im going asexual. sure i'll be unhappy as fuck, but maybe someone as stupid as i am will try to get something they cant have.